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Gonna be going to climb Mount Fuji in 2 days. Super excited about it and looking forward to some time off work

I've been trying to pull myself out of a depressive episode. No luck yet.

It’s alright. Just came back to visit my parents and just can’t help but think why is relationship so hard for me for some reason lmao.

Good. I came out as bi to my cousin yesterday. I've actually been having an ok week. I hope things stay ok

My wife is having cardiac surgery right now, I am staying at a hotel near the hospital, working remotely, trying to keep busy and not think about it too much.

Spent the week at a work conference. I normally WFH, so getting to see everyone in person was kinda nice. Got a flight delay going home - no big deal, but I'm anxious to get back home to my dogs and partner.

i've been stuck in a rut now for a couple of weeks, so this week hasn't been any different. i am in a state of living right now where nothing is interesting to me: no games, no movies/shows, no music, not really anything. i am thinking about buying pikmin 4 to help with that. i've never really played any pikmin games but it looks so fun

It's okay. I hit a new weight high of 129 lbs (I am 5'11" so hitting as low as 119 is fucked) but now the idea of eating even more is extra nauseating and unappealing. About to see my therapist though and they'll be thrilled with the gains. Anyone else fucking despise food and eating and biological needs??

My dad is going through DTs and I'm on the other side of the world on a business trip. I hope the withdrawal doesn't kill him before I get to see him again.

Last week my gf and her friends gave me the chance to do something different, so I quit my job (on the grace period right now) and we are starting to figure law stuff out cause we are international

I've been playing Tears of the Kingdom a lot which is great!

But today I'm suddenly feeling pretty sad. I have really bad executive dysfunction and ADHD and there's a lot of things I want to draw. There's Art Fight and also this July art prompt list for a fandom I really want to do some art for, but I don't know if I have the time or motivation to do it. Not to mention there's an art commission that I haven't finished and they've been waiting a while. They have been so patient but I've been planning to get it done this summer and it feels like it's almost over. And like, I have hobbies outside of drawing so that makes it harder.

Also r/place starts today. I loved r/place last year. It was incredible to participate in and see. But all the shit Reddit has pulled and how bitter I feel towards it has really put a damper on it and I feel sad just thinking about it.

I'm also pretty bummed out about how...empty the fediverse feels in a lot of corners. Even the communities that have opened as a substitute for other subreddits are often empty or inactive. There seems to be a lack of a fandom on Fediverse which means it feels pretty lonely and even if I made stuff relating to that I feel like it wouldn't get a lot of attention.

Dealing with my executive dysfunction. I managed to study for 90 minutes this Monday morning, and I tried to continue that same afternoon, but I couldn't do more than 30 minutes.

I need to put my head in order to avoid those situations, but I can't.

Holidays! Almost the end of them and I am so tired I must say. In a good way I think but I will need to recover at home for a few days.

I am addicted to internet and mmos and I managed to curb it a solid bit due to holidays but it never lasts honestly.

Here I was doing 10k steps a day bare feet on the beach walks, generally being more healthy than at home and I fear I will slump again into my old habits of sitting and mmoing all day. Already bought ffxiv complete edition on sale.

Frankly lemmy is also part of my eternal crusade against digital addictions

I'm trying to find a new job asap! Last week was really the last straw. I was hired for a technical position but for the past two years I've done nothing but punishing manual labor almost entirely unrelated to my job. I don't mind working outside my job description but the reality is I've lost so much knowledge just from being out of practice. I hope it hasn't ruined my shot at the right job. Its technically possible for me to return to school full time but I'm not sure I could 1) make the sacrifices required and 2) actually succeed. I've failed twice already.

I know everyone working out in the field wishes they had a desk job and vice versa, but damn I'd love a cubicle.

Wrapping up a trip to the Philippines! Having mixed feelings about going back to real life soon. Also, this is my first post here. I always feel awkward introducing myself in those introduction type threads, but hello everyone!

In short:

Very hot weather & no AC => window open at night => getting woken up at 5:30 in the morning by early morning trains => tired af

Massive windstorm came through my area last Friday afternoon. Had like Cat 1 hurricane winds. In the Midwest US. So it knocked down trees and powerlines all over the metro area. I was out of power from 4:00pm on Friday through 8:30pm Monday.

So it was a shitty weekend. I (and my brother who's visiting) stayed in my apartment on Friday night, which was sweltering. Humidity and like 85F (29.4C) temps inside, even with windows open, made it miserable to sleep. Saturday, we spent like 7hrs at my company's tiny office (we're actually full remote) charging up phones and battery banks, while just hanging out and enjoying the AC. But we stayed in my apt again on Saturday night, which was just a bit cooler, but enough that I was able to sleep like 8hrs. Sunday during the day was OK, but then it rained again and got sunny afterwards, driving up humidity. We finally decided to get a hotel room. On Monday, after checking out, we hung out at the local library to work (I could've gone to my office, but I knew a couple co-workers w/o power at home were there). Monday evening was a little cooler again, so we braved the apt, and then the power came back. Even through Tuesday, there were still like a thousand customers in the metro without power. I think the utility is back to normal ops now.

Overall, it just a wasted weekend. It sorta felt like homelessness, especially when going to my office, then to the hotel, then going to the library. At my apartment, it was sorta like camping but way less fun.

At least I had no property damage or injuries. Driving around, I saw lots of trees on houses. I saw at least a few vehicles that looked totally destroyed since trees fell on them. So it could've been worse for us.

As a wow player, I started my 3 day weekend and accomplished getting a new raid mount, and one I’ve wanted since I started playing! I’ve only been playing since around September, but it’s a 1% chance of dropping so I’m grateful!

Pretty much like the last couple: Not fast enough during the work parts, the weekend will probably fly by so fast it'll feel like I didn't have one. Rinse, repeat.

just finished two books today: I'll Be Gone in the Dark: One Woman's Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer and The Greatest Polar Expedition of All Time: The Arctic Mission to the Epicenter of Climate Change. i have concluded that i dislike most true crime and that i mostly derive amusement from such books because they display how incompetent a lot of cops are. i would recommend The Greatest Polar Expedition of All Time if you would like to know about what it takes to do a scientific mission in the Arctic

Yesterday was my first day back at work after vacation (just chilled at home knitting and listening to audiobooks for a week) and it actually went incredibly well. I'm on a new ADHD medication that seems to be working without much side effects at all wbich is a huge relief and hopefully will really positively impact my productivity at work.

Me and my partner had a good and productive talk about our communications, and that was great.

It is absolutely ridiculously humid AF outside so the little thunderstorms we've been having this week have been a nice little break, with the added excitement of wondering if the power will go out and if so for how long.

I've read three books so far this week and am on a great series by Samantha SoRelle that I'm really enjoying.

Hope everyone is having an awesome day.

Just created my account here in the past day. I know it probably can't last, but I don't think I've had that "cozy" feeling right away in a forum or other online community like this in decades, and I'd say it was somewhat rare even "back in the day."

So far folks seem to live up to the stated goals of the place and I think that's pretty great.

So my day is going pretty good because that's a pleasant surprise, and because a stressful work event today ended up being not too stressful after all.

It's been a weird couple weeks for me. I was working six days a week for the last three months and now they've been giving me these random middle of the week days off so my sleep schedule is just wrecked lol back to work for today and tomorrow now but it's been pretty slow here so I mainly just browse beehaw and mastodon all day. Luckily I get hourly + commission so if I see one or two customers today I'll be happy. It's been a pretty chill week I guess. 😌 Sorta depressing that my life is all about work lately though

There has been a lil bad and a decent amount of good this week so far

My job's treating us poorly even though we're making the company massive profits in the millions. I would like to leave but I think I've been in this dead end position too long. I might need to re skill but I have no idea what I would like/what would pay enough.

The weekend was busy but a lot of fun. Got to go to my first anime convention. Only went for one day when I could have easily gone for the whole weekend. Next year I'll do that. It was nice because I haven't gone to any events like that for probably about 5 years or so. Usually I'm not tired at night but both Saturday and Sunday night I fell asleep right away which was kind of nice for a change.

To cap off one of my strangest days in recent memory, I just got a call asking if I can go to England all next week to accompany a choir tour. Nothing's confirmed yet, and I'd have to pull some major strings to get out of my obligations here. However, I'd really love to go.

Unfortunately, we're moving a few days after I'd get back, so I'd pretty much dump all the packing on my partner. She says I should go regardless, but I definitely don't feel great about that.

I also just finished up a take-home interview project for a part-time software development job. I've been trying to break back into that world for some time now, so I'm very excited about the opportunity.