The divisions within the GOP are so strong that even the Speaker of the Texas House is now facing pressure for not being conservative enough because he had the temerity to follow the evidence and impeach the state's Attorney General, Ken Paxton. This shows how far to the right the party has moved when purity tests like this one (where the suspect appears overwhelmingly to be actually guilty of the crime accused) are enough to knock party leaders from their perch.
Thank you for sharing. I don't have any special pearls of wisdom, except to say that I see you, you are not alone.
If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here. I'm sure the same is true for many folks on this big, federated universe.
And if you don't have someone to talk to in your world offline, there are plenty of resources for folks who would be happy to listen if you care to share more.
Hang in there!