jlyndby

Recently had to move back to my apartment cause I broke up with my bf. To start MOVING IS IMPOSSIBLE for many reasons, please don't even ask.

Was hoping for a fresh start with the psychopaths who live below me. I did everything possible to gaslight myself into thinking it was all just a big misunderstanding and that there was hope to repair our relations.

Basically the first day, I had ptsd from before. I tried my hardest to tip toe the entire day, and to never walk quickly so that I don't bother them (dress despite hearing them stomping and walking aggressively).

The entire time I am on edge because every time I make the smallest noise they counterattack it, doesn't matter if it's an accident or once per day. So basically my body and mind is always in a state of fight or flight, bracing itself constantly for a reaction.

Even then, I had to listen to them being noisy af. At one point I tried to turn on my tv on THE LOWEST VOLUME and it wasn't in response to anything they did. They immediately but some vibrating device on and it kept buzzing it sounded like a drill but it was just a ceiling vibrator and I recorded it. They stopped since then I think they realized it's too obvious or they could only use the plausible deniability to confuse it with some dude that was renovating for 5 minutes.

After 3 days have passed of living here, I'm realizing there seems to be no winning.

Basically their rules are, that they can make as much noise as they want, but if I make the tiniest noise I will be punished.

Not only that, but they also attack unprovoked. I feel like they are genuinely trying their absolute hardest to get a reaction out of me, it's like their hobby or something. The third day I put my earplugs in, and even when I was COMPLETELY SILENT LYING ON THE COUCH FOR HOURS, they started escalating and they dropped a really heavy object to the point where the whole apartment building vibrated. They also hammer all day at random times including quiet hours but they do it really quietly, to the point where it's legal. Like its enough to drive you literally insane.

They also randomly aggressively stomp and they also do stuff to imitate me. Like if I read something funny and laugh (im not obnoxious) right after they will slam stuff or stomp aggressively. Keep in mind I literally laughed once not like I've been annoying them 24/7.

Now everyone will try to gaslight me but there's a lot more that proves they are doing it on purpose, and I'm NOT delusional or imagining things.

Is there actually nothing I can do? Like I don't even think sueing them would help cause they're not gonna move out.

I just don't get why they're doing it. I'm also worried about them framing me. I feel like most people in the apartment have already turned against me cause I'm the only foreigner who speaks with an accent here.

For example, once I tried going to different floors to see where the sound was coming from, and 2 different people complained immediately and reported me saying I'm "creepy" and "invading their space" and need to stop immediately or they'll call the cops (I was a 26 year old girl at the time)...

They immediately threatened they would have a meeting with me and the property manager and the other 2 people to have a "talk" with me

I just don't know wtf to do anymore and I don't understand why I'm the target of everything

I genuinely feel like no matter what I do, psychopaths can always pretty much immediately defect me as the perfect victim.

I think it's partly because I'm ugly, partly because I'm sensitive, and they can just tell I'm a weak person.

It's making my life a living hell, no matter how hard I try I just can't blend it, I can't force myself to act a certain way, it's exhausting to me

Help..

If an apartment has high ceilings and big rooms it gives me anxiety. I'm not sure if it's because I tie it to traumatic experiences of what.

In my big apartment that I rented I felt awful and had anxiety. It also has light colours everywhere.

The little one felt cozier and had darker colours.

Has anyone had a similar experience? I don't know what to do cause I'm stuck in the bigger one until the lease is up

I've been in a few situations where I need substantial help from strangers, and some have offered to help (most haven't followed through) but I just can't do it.

For example someone offered to help me move and I just feel super uncomfortable about it to the point where I'd rather risk something bad happening to me. Like I feel super awkward and uncomfortable accepting huge favours from strangers

Someone even offered a place to stay for me with my pets but I can't accept it cause I feel way too awkward and like I owe them or something, like I have a huge fear and anxiety about it

Like I just feel like a disgusting parasite wasting their time and energy and it's also humiliating

Is that normal?

I had the Philips one but after about a year it's suction changed to the point where it's hard for it to pick up cat litter now..

It must be able to deal with a lot of cat hair and litter.. and preferably be under 500 euros.

Of course I think a corded one is better for my purposes, and I have mostly hard floors with a few small rugs.

The problem is that every year the quality decreases, so it becomes difficult to know which vacuums will still be good. For example, someone may have purchased the same vacuum 5 years ago and think it's great but the one sold today might not compare

Not a troll post. Why is everything shit?