I think about doing this all the time and I have the exact same fear.
The friends I knew managed to do so much with their lives over the years. By comparison, I feel like I’m stuck in the exact same place I was in years ago.
Whenever I think about reaching out, I think about that moment. The one where they ask how I’ve been doing or what I’ve been up to.
I don’t even know where I’d start or what I’d say. Just the thought of it alone is enough to make me extremely anxious.
I think I’d rather eat actual dirt than face the embarrassment of letting them see how I turned out.
Trying to. It’s hard because I’m super lonely and want to connect with people. But it’s still really new here and not a lot of users are here yet.