Yeah, there are some rationalizations given that barely stand muster, but in the worst cases, it feels like Ante is giving them to MC just to help him cope. "Yes, you had to do something terrible to the people you want to save, but in a way [enter convoluted explanation here] this helps you get stronger and brings you closer to your end goal". At several times now it seemed to me like Ante is keeping MC's head over water in this way. Maybe since she can read his thoughts/see his soul it's the only thing to keep him from breaking apart. I'm only unsure if this is a sign of affection or if Ante is just stringing him along for her own gains. This ambiguity makes their relationship one of the most interesting I've read in a long time.