Oh, I get it, and you are right. But my fundamentally illogical brain worries that whatever it is that makes me special, why and how I do the things I do, may have come from the coping mechanisms I've developed. I kinda like the atypical way I tend to look at things, and it's taken me far both personally and professionally. I struggle like mad every day but if that struggle is what makes me, me. I'll take it.

Honestly, the only reason I'd get diagnosed at this point is an explanation, I wouldn't likely change much about myself either way; so I don't bother. I also went through all the early 1980's ADD testing (before ADHD was even a thing) as a kid which came back negative (or at least that ritalin was ineffective for me); so I always just lived my life as I am who I am, no explanation needed.