I don't have to imagine unfortunately. But the need for structure vs the need for change balances out juuuust enough that it's like I'm almost normal.

[–] gerryflap@feddit.nl 2 points 1 year ago

Yeah I meant to communicate that I had the same issue. It's a "fun" combination

[–] dependencyInjection@sh.itjust.works 4 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Is that just an internal battle constantly

[–] JokeDeity@lemm.ee 5 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Yes. For me, more and more so for the last few years it just starts to turn into freezing. I get stuck. My mind is racing and thinking of all the things I "could" do and instead I just sit motionless and borderline unable to move by my own will trapt in thought.

[–] snooggums@kbin.social 1 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Like scrolling through My List on streaming media instead of watching anything!

[–] JokeDeity@lemm.ee 1 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I've literally done that for like 40 minutes on Netflix, but my Steam game library is even worse.

[–] snooggums@kbin.social 1 points 1 year ago

My List is where good movies and shows go to be ignored so I can pick something random not on the list that I have zero expectations of being good to avoid being disappointed.

[–] JokeDeity@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

Why imagine when it's already my waking nightmare? 😂😭